Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Give it to me straight doc, plus Capital Peak 50 Miler
I'd like to preference this post by saying, I do not have a life or death situation here and I am aware enough to have such perspective, but I thought the conversation I had with this doctor had to be posted here.
When I went to see the Naturopathic Dr to receive my MRI results, she told me that the results were inconclusive. Inconclusive? Hum, well at least I do not have a bulging disc that is pinching a nerve, arthritis, tendinitis, something that makes me never able to be active again, etc. Yes, it's good nothing bad was found. As a catch 22, I was hoping to get some answers that were more suggestive as to how to treat these symptoms of mine. The ND was stumped as well and suggested I see an orthopedic sports medicine dr. The doctor she wanted me to see was on vacation but in the office of this doctor on vacation was another doctor that had an appointment that same week. I thought ok, well maybe a sports medical doctor might have a different perspective on how to interpret the MRI. Well, he did have a different perspective. The conversation went like this;
Him; 'I don't know what's going on with your leg, I don't really see anything. Maybe you have a bruised muscle or maybe you have a hemangioma. I don't think it is a bruised or strained muscle because the area that seems unusual in the MRI is in the middle of your muscle and we generally see bruises and strains on either end of the muscle. If it is a hemangioma, then there is nothing you can do about it. You just have to decided to run in pain or not to run.'
Me; 'So, you are saying that if it is a hemangioma, there is nothing I can do. Why is that, what is a hemangioma?'
Him; 'A hemangioma is a benign tumor. It's a birth mark. Most people have them on their skin, few have them in their muscle. If it is in your muscle, there is nothing that can be done. You have had this since birth.'
Me; 'Well, if I've had this since birth, why did I just start feeling it last year? I've been active my whole life and I never had this problem before.'
Him; 'I don't know. I don't know why you are so upset, it is not like I'm telling you that you have cancer.'
Me; blank stare
Him; 'Have you ever considered that fact that you might be just too old to run? I see a lot of people out running and it's rare I see someone as old as you."
Me; blank stare
Him; 'Listen, you have 4 muscles in your quad and 4 in your abductor region. Only one of those muscles is effected, can't you find a way to run without using that muscle?
Me; blank stare
Him; 'Good luck with that' and off he went out the door.
For the record, I did respond a few times, but I was taken back by his....his....insensitivity. For crying out loud, this guys is a sports medicine doctor, of all people I would think that he values one's desire for pain free activity. Anyway, I left there feeling lousy.
I hymned and hawed for 2 days wondering if I should run Capital Peak 50 Miler on Saturday, let alone Big Horn 100 in June. Ultimately, John and I decided to go. He had rolled his ankle and had not been running much. We decided that we can always opt for the 55k if we were really in bad shape. Owen drove us and was going to volunteer. When I was getting my number, I saw some friends and a few of them said, man, I can't believe we're about to run a 50 miler, that's a far way. It dawned on me I hadn't even thought about the logistics of the race at all. I had been so consumed with whether or not I would run but hadn't thought about the distance. That sometimes works in a persons favor though....
We started and immediately I was walking. I saw everyone and their brother pass me by. Literally, I believe I was the last person. I walked and walked and tried to keep a good mental attitude. After about 10 minutes, I was able to start to run. I started off slowly and tried not to be discouraged. I thought, no way am I going to be able to run 50 miles let alone 100. Why did I start? Then I reeled it in...I thought to myself, you don't know this course so just enjoy the new scenery and if it takes you 12 or 13 hours to finish, well, then that's that. Mindset adjustment....complete.